
during the last week of dec, we visited marina bay sands, the newest integrated resort to hit singapore’s pathetically small ground surface.
dreadfully, unjustifiably extravagant and expensive, marina bay sands is designed specifically for those who have too much money and too little time to spend it. to make it easier for you to dispose of all your disposable income, they sell goods with exorbitant price tags so you can spend all your money on JUST one thing!
how ingenious!
but the spending doesn’t just stop at luxury goods – they charge you the same ridiculous prices for EVERYTHING ELSE, too!
i made the heinous suggestion of visiting this place to my family in december 2010 – it’s not that i did not know better, it just seemed wrong to let my cousin, who was visiting from Australia, to go home without witnessing the stupidity of singapore. so, on a cloudy day, we set off to the sands.
we began by visiting the “shopping” portion of the sands – heaps of nothingness. this mall is HUGE, like INSANELY BIG, but there are only 2 star attractions – a “sampan” on the artificial lakes within the mall and this joke of a skating rink:

made out of some “special” rubberized surface, you can skate on this with ice skates. we were debating on whether it was “really ice” when i pointed out that if it was, why the hell is everyone so skimpily clad on the rink? they should be bloody freezing!
cynic in me won with the superior logic, obvs
the other attraction, the sampan, not pictured here, was NOT worth wasting my shutter count on. a sampan is really just an asian boat, nothing fancy, but exploited as part of the sands concept, since it has some cultural relevance to singapore. the ride itself is done on a HORRIBLY PLAIN indoor water route, which is basically a longass irregularly shaped swimming pool – just concrete walls and blue water, nothing interesting at all, save for the sights provided by these lavish shop fronts. and of course, the sampan ride is obscenely overpriced at $10 per pax. $10 bucks!! to ride on a stupid paddle boat around a mall and conveniently serve as a freakshow for everyone else NOT on the sampan. KNN!!
walking around, we got super bored and since cousin broke her shoe, had to go to crocs to get a new pair of shoes, which, btw, cost us $30 -_- for a pair of slippers.. ok.

this place is just a fucking joke. waited in line for near to 10 mins, no service, no hello – they didn’t want our business obviously. there were TWO people taking and making ONE order and even though i wanted my cousin to try out the kind of custom icecream flavours shops like these offered, their complete lack of customer service and just basic courtesy has turned me off forever. i will NEVER PATRONIZE this shop. in fact, i’m going to find out who manages this franchise and make sure to never get anything from anything they manage.
-_-
*deepbreath*
there isn’t much to do at marina bay sands, but i suppose if you do visit, you must go to the “sky park”. heralded as THE place to see the view in Singapore, access to this viewing platformis located on a 57-storey mega hotel:

because of the size of the mall, we got lost multiple times and looped around 40000 times before finally realizing where we had to go was across the road. then, the tumultuous task of getting to there SAFELY…took us about 35 mins before we finally got to the damn fucking park.
sky park access is chargeable at $20 per pax, which i really REALLY did not feel like paying for. but we forked out the cash and hoped for the best.
hopped onto the lift, which takes us all the way up to level 56 (FUN!):


i felt no pressure difference because i am cool like that. everyone else complained about their ears



from the creatively named “skybar”, which, BTW, also sells you tshirts announcing your ill fate in visiting this place for $50, just in case you needed peripherals to the insult this attraction has branded upon your memory





which, you know, for all my complaining, was still quite something to behold. ^O~
what can you do on this place? really, just…





they say pictures speak louder than words, so i’ll leave you with this:

p.s. that means, OF COURSE NOT LAH!

been a long ass time since i met up with some of my favourite people in the world, so am super glad we finally set aside a time to meet up yesterday! but as usual i fuck up in terms of timing…
i stayed up all night pulling some rubbish post on MBS + finish work on the premium brochure i am designing for Segway, then decided to feed wang wang, my red poodle, which resulted in a 3 hour chase around the house ‘cos i always feel bad when i need to put her back into the pen
so i stayed up for the entire morning too!
this lack of sleep caused a deep hibernation that almost caused me to miss the meet up – luckily YN called and woke me up; when she asked where i was, i hastily lied and said “on my way”
it was embarrassing and i apologized for it later
the meet up was great as always! we went to Ajisen Gourmet Town @ Nex . we ordered gyozas to share and i got the beef don because i hadn’t eaten the entire fucking day

we spent sometime to gossip about other halves before YN’s BF drove us to Serangoon Gardens for dessert/drinks

Located on the 2nd story of the building in Serangoon Gardens, Dessert Bowl is a quaint little stop for budget local desserts with weird yellowy retro decor…

i was conservative and got the yummilicious lychee ice:

just good, how can anything with lychee NOT be good?!
met the other half of YN:



i miss my friends already
hope to see them soon
let’s say, if, you were the cutest dog in the world. you know, fluffy, red, poodle and small…

and one day, after NOT grooming you for close to 3 months, i bring you to the worst dog groomer in the world.
told him to give you a full groom.
say… BALD.

OMG
to help you consider, here is a great reminder of the kind of cute you used to be:

if i was a guy this dog would be a chick magnet. as it is, i get talked to all the time when i walked her before the haircut

… …………
and for your information, this is the difference between a good haircut and a bad haircut for puppies as cute as miss wang.

left: GOOD | right: HOLY SHIT

<3

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i noticed a lot of hits on my blog from searches for tokidoki wallpaper – and particularly of late, searches for “tokidoki january” – so i thought, hey, why not make one!
tokidoki for hello kitty is super cute – but wallpaper of this is scarce. thus i’m happy to present this green tokidoki hello kitty that i vectorized with love
i enjoyed making it and i think i will continue to make more every month – so if you would like to see something specific, do leave a comment and i might try it out!
available in 1920×1200 – and ‘cos i am a dual monitor girl, a tiled pattern for your other screens
if you need other resolutions/colours, just drop a comment!
Click on the wallpaper(s) of your choice, then simply right click to save the image in full resolution – or use the nifty “Download all here” link to get the entire wallpaper pack.

I LOVE LIQUID JINRO. NO OTHER WORDS ARE NEEDED. for a glimpse of his glory, hit: http://www.gomtv.net/2011gslsponsors1/vod/59850 (subscription required, and you should sub… because i said so :P)
i’ve been playing terran since release and i will be honest: i suck. it took me over 300 1v1s to finally hit platinum and still, i fall to strong 4gates. i feel like there is NO HOPE once you don’t kill a protoss before 10 minute mark or if you can’t contain. i’m not marineking, i can’t micro against HTs, i am just an ordinary gamer with crappy handspeed and the inability to emp properly, so toss is always an impossibility for me to beat late game, where macro is just not good enough – micro is the decider. i honestly have been WAITING for EVER for a terran to show me, YES, TERRAN HAS A LATEGAME AGAINST TOSS. TERRAN CAN WIN AGAINST TOSS WITH MECH. and my wish came true today when i watched liquid.jinro roll the BEST toss in the world, not ONCE, but TWICE with a mech terran build.
of course i’m not saying “oh you need to see someone else do it to do it yourself?” – its just that hope, that i some day, can beat toss with more than the one dimensional 3 rax 4 rax play i’ve been practicing what seems to be forever, that i don’t need to rely on the “OP marauder” to win games against toss, and for terran to really evolve in tvp – i feel like history was made today when jinro did what he did; thats his instinct and thats why i am so so happy to call myself a jinro fan!!
i havent felt this happy in a while ^________________^ today’s GSL (this season tbh too) was wonderful to watch. and i think tasetosis have never been as infectious with their energy as they were today. /HEARTS INTERNET!!!
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one of those days that seem to occur more and more
i need to speak to you, but you aren’t there
i need to reach you, but you are not around
all this desperation, all this repetition, is just a plea
to hear that you love me in your voice
to see that you miss me in your face
tell me, how is it, i am expected to keep my sanity
there is nothing here that i have, that i had, that i can keep
who i am today is lonely, who you expect me to be, is alone
and that is all i am all day, all week, all month
in this time, i have thought it again and again
they say, if you are not happy, then don’t stay
there is nothing left to keep, except the hope, that this is a circumstance beyond your control
and i want to believe, but even i am not naive enough to think this is true
but again, and again, and again, i am the bottom of the list,
i am the last priority
wake up at 6am, you are not there,
wake up at 7am, you are not there,
wake up at 12pm, you log off 1 hour ago
i want to hear, baby i am sorry,
baby i miss you
baby i want you
baby i wish i had you
baby i love you so much
but i hear,
sup i gtg
sup i have class
sup i am so tired
sup i passed out for 20 hours
i said, a long time ago,
the kind of love i have for you
is the kind that doesn’t need you to be around to exist,
but i was wrong,
without you around i am lonely,
without you around i am afraid,
without you around i cry because i don’t know where you are
literally.
and too, literally, i am not on your mind
and yet whenever i speak of these fears, all i hear, is an irritation in your voice,
to get over it, to forget it
i want to scream out loud, if you only knew, the kind of scream i have been holding inside
tell me, am i not good enough>
have i been so bad?
all these months before, and all these months ahead
i can only see myself, doing the same thing i have been doing for so long
waiting
just waiting
just waiting for you
waiting for the day
except i do not know now, what i am waiting for
am i waiting for your weekends? for you to come home?
because you never tell me when you are around, only tell me you are when you have to go
am i waiting for the day your semester ends, and you go home?
because then, you will simply go party and forget about me, as you did before
am i waiting for the day you graduate, and you get a career?
because then, i will simply be irrelevant to your life
what am i waiting for?
can somebody tell me?
tell me, how do i quell my fears,
how do i silence my despair
inside me, it is just an abyss of pain and worry and paranoia
inside me, is just an earnest wish, that i never made silly wishes, never had silly hopes, never ever met you
because today, i am suffering
every day, i have been suffering
for you, i have suffered for months now,
for every time you go to school, and again and again, you choose to indulge in games, in others,
i am just an accessory to your life, never the focus
because to ask to be the focus, requires you to give up all that you want, all that you like,
its me, its me, i am selfish,
i am old,
i have no more youth to squander,
but to be with you, for you to expect me to deal with this constant absence,
you are asking me to leave my life in your hands
because my prime is over,
i gave what little i had of it, to you
and please, dear god
i wish for the eternal sunshine of a spotless mind,
please, dear god, make me forget how much i want that romance
because today i know, i cannot help the person i love,
i am no asset to your life,
i have no merit to add to your existence,
i don’t belong.
thats why you are never around.
thats why you never answer your phone when i call.
thats why i am always the last thing on your mind, although, now, it seems like i am not even on it any more.
thats why i cry.
you can say all these logical reasons,
but the truth is, if you even understood, if you knew, if you just used your heart over your head for once with me today,
you will see how much i am falling apart for you
wake up
dont waste my youth any more
if you cant love me, write me love letters, if you have no more energy to just show me
that you still have me in your heart
then let me go
tell me to leave
close the door on me
never answer me again
my poor haggard life and heart
cant take any more loss
cant take any more longing
cant take any more sadness
i have told you before,
that i wish to end my life
it is not to make you stay,
i just wish you to know
how empty,
this void
of living
feels like
but please tell me
when will you stop being away,
when will you stop being nowhere to be found
we both know
my threats to leave you dont work
we both know how much my heart belongs to you
you have the upper hand
but please have the kindness in you
to be merciful
and take good care of my pathetic heart.
there’s not much life left to it already.
and i don’t know, i don’t think i know how to keep it alive any more
because its 3pm and i still cant reach you
because you will wake up for your study group but you cant get up a little bit earlier to listen
because every other person on earth can call you and you will answer,
but when weissie calls you just hear “please leave a message”
tonight is just one of those days where i really don’t know how to stop crying
because IT HURTS
NEOMU APPA
I AM JUST A GIRL
BEGGING YOU TO PLEASE
PLEASE
PROTECT ME FROM THIS
PROTECT ME…HELP ME.. SAVE ME
I DON’T WANT TO EXIST IN THIS LIMBO OF PRETENDING I UNDERSTAND
AND THE EMOTION OF FEELING NEGLECTED BEYOND REPAIR
BECAUSE
IT
HURTS
SO
MUCH
it hurts so much to know i am just a negligible part of your life, if i am even part of it anymore.

FIRST OF ALL! yay for me!!!!!!! i fixed that retarded previous post thumbnail bug, so there will be no moar broken images.
this post is going to be random shit because i want to push down that emo post i made, that was some seriously depressing wall of text; while i dont regret writing it at all, its not something i want to see everytime i go to my own blog (yes!!!!! i do that ok!!!!). it felt so much like a last cry for our relationship. like if it didn’t work anything out with yyx, that would be the end - but thankfully, it did, he is trying harder and giving me simple things and simple joys. last 2 days have been a lot better for me and i haven’t been crying :p i hope it continues because i really hate being emo.
every sc freak knows about team liquid, so imagine the kind of OMFGWTFBBQ i was in when i checked my site stats and found i had a few hundred hits from teamliquid - turns out a nice fellow sc2 lover had plugged my jinro blogpost on the forums – so thanks, xHydrax! it brought a huge smile to my face ^O^ go visit his youtube channel!!! he does great commentary, i’ve learnt a few things from him
people still seem genuinely surprised about this, but there is actually a pretty healthy sc2 female gamers population; i get asked whether i am a girl on sc2 quite often, since my ign is “tetrisgirl”. i personally know ~5 and know about more. for instance, kellymilkies (who stupid akira thinks is me), who is also from singapore! this female caster is a diamond, zerg-loving e-sports supporter who has her own livestream on teamliquid.
i’m hoping that someday i will be diamond too~~~ ^^ going to be practicing my 1v1 so i can fulfill my wish! in the mean time, BNET PLZ DUN DEMOTE ME FROM PLATNIUMMMMMMMM
in my never ending quest to colour the world the way i like it, we painted house on saturday with papa; our originally blue living room now is peach and salmon pink. yes yes, tis me who convinced my father to do such an unfathomable thing!
a lot of yelling and stuff happened.


the pink makes people look so much prettier and stuff. i used to have to colour correct like mad whenever i took photos of people in the living room, but now, i am quite certain that this will no longer be a problem!

puppy got locked in and was unhappy
no running around for 2 days! OH NOEZ!
but, in other great news, her furcoat is growing out beautifully!

me on the other hand, oh my god. i fucked up my hair out of boredom and cut myself a mushroom head. now my hair is all wavy and i look like a retard. lol

and lastly… err… brochure for segway gogreen came out.. yay! i like. it looks nice.

yep. SUCCESSFUL POST HIDING MISSION! +1